I’m back in DC at my apartment and back at work! My initial surgery was April 5th, my revision was April 29th, and I returned to work on May 11th. Not bad, eh? Being young and physically fit was a big positive for me in my recovery. I am still trying to take things slowly and I have occasional discomfort and soreness, but it just feels great to be back in my normal routine and seeing friends and colleagues.
Chemo is my next step, and if all goes well I will start it next week and be done by September. I’ll be doing 4 rounds of AC then 4 rounds of T. As the title of this entry suggests, though, things are not as straightforward as they first seemed. In every step throughout this process, I feel as though I’ve had a huge, frustrating decision to make. Lumpectomy or Mastectomy? Harvesting eggs or risking infertility? Etc.
I thought chemo would be more straightforward, but now I’ve been introduced to the option of the cold cap. It’s not widely used in the US but there are lots of great success stories and my parents, in their loving way, have offered to take care of everything if I decide to use it.
But I can’t decide! On one hand I’d LOVE to keep my hair. Up until now I’ve been a cancer patient without looking like one. The second I lose my hair, though, I’ll instantly be identified as a cancer patient, and I’d love to avoid that. But on the other hand, I’ve been preparing for the hair loss (bought two wigs already) and it’s not the biggest deal in the world to me to lose my hair temporarily. I know it will grow back, and it will be kind of fun (fun?) to see what I look like bald and with really short hair as it grows back. Also, the cold caps seem to be a huge pain in the butt to use given that hospitals in the US don’t widely use them and have the right equipment to do so.
So again I’m faced with a big decision. Not life threatening, per say, but big nonetheless. Anyone have experience with the cold caps and want to share? I’d appreciate some input.